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Hmmm I do not think it with me is because I found "the" people still do not have or lost (look also diary) ..
no, I think it's just part of my life experience, but I will not say she was just schelcht, there are / were wonderful moments and I am grateful and have fond memories turn, or because, even if it sometimes still painful .
Well I'm always afraid to love People hurting, overwhelming them, daovn when I tell them how I feel, why it is so to me. I'm afraid, against which you are too good for me. I have not soweiso deserves.
I have learned not to react to positive emotional inspirations ... I'm in a learning phase, I learn a psotiven Ausschalg in my life to live, to experience ... to show it ... I have to learn a lot and most importantly, I share with emotionally, especially if it really captured me deeply emotional. I can say to a man who means nothing to me, what I think, both as a negative psotiv auhc, m but a man bdeuet me something that I like. That reminds me of the very difficult, even after years of acquaintance ... I prefer zzurück, I just do not want anyone bothering wiel so I done differently, think differently, and above all experience many different looks that way. me!



hmm just now not written by PM!

It makes you think ... Do not think the mistakes I make, I need to solcht not good conversation. No thoughtful, as I am what I am ....
Why am I so ...

The why is easier to explain. than why ...

I have studied many psyches .. learned much in this stuidert Themaktik ... just to know exactly why most people do exactly that and not just other things ... but with me this is in turn extremely difficult sometimes ...

good that I'm not gerworden Psychiarter .... I can explain

waru, I act, welceh reasons there are in addition ... DECLARE all with logic why. why and how ... not only with me also recognize the logic in my failed undas cih'm too emotional ... and yet my knowledge stops with me on ...

I know everything ... I only wieß not know why, and why can not stop iuch!

confidence in all just not in me ...

The world around me is not dark ... I just close my eyes and experience it so ....

hard around me people like me, so I find that the z say, and I close my eyes and tell me it can not be true ...

ic'm not used to that one likes me, they love me see more than once!

not think it is einfahc to write ....

Ivch you like, I do not see, I trust you, I do not show it, you

her away from me, uid, it is my fault, I do not wiel can show me what to euich lieght ....

I will not hurt, especially not you, not you daysleeper, not you coma, not you shelly, not the Tobi, you genius, you do not Vipers_Slave, not you, Luisa, not you .... Not all of you ...

I've hurt himself in order not to violate gauge to myself not to hurt ...

paradoxical as it seems ...


Forgive me my weakness, I allowed to verbalize ...

Teething Cause Constipation

Sunday, 10/07 Monday, 07/18 Saturday, 09/07

hmm Have cleaned up my room today and I've found some pictures of her ....




of the most beautiful woman in the world to me ... After all

are separated almost 5 years, taken a few times by accident, she recently had a birthday ... Hmm

was almost always a schweerr days, this was actually 7.4 ...

I'm happy for her happy for a new year ...

Maybe I will this year's emahligen Meeting also see if I would go for the first time!



Hmm somehow makes thoughtful mihc the whole, it may look like
today, how is she, she has experienced so far good, if she now and again me thinks, so once a year?

Well it is Sunday night I was lying in bed: D can not sleep ...

Well custody gehtz so until a few physical ailments, knee problems and L2 to L5 but contain solutions gehtz me good ...

degree NEN review of low-Germany see ...

interesting, very interesting, but since ci identify people who have even less .... and I know of myself!

And notice how good I am, for the time and got training earn money ...
sigh

the social network ... many bitching about it while we still have one of the social networks Bestenm this world, but clearly still has a lot to be done for all the people who need help, but who want to do something!

parasite I do not like ...

morning school sigh ... Do not feel no plan or no plan einfahc if there not back out of boredom, what the teacher fails .. I work out on the ward or in private more than in the school, which is a pity ...

hzmm grad mal in 1817 characters: D

thoughtful I will ....


'm still alive .... Well anyway .... Bye

Soling Sailboat For Sale

.2005

I've always [b] Masochist [/ b]

I think I had always liked it when you hurt me, that one hurts me ....

I unconsciously slip out to work?
Mach I durhc my behavior so much wrong, that there are people doing so painful? ...

I do it to simply laughed Irishman not to the boundaries, they do not mean to connect, I'm gefeid Wiess and it hurt me anyway, so I arm myself against it? ...

Am I Unable relationship ?....
Am I unable to truly love?

If life pure logic, no one would cope better than moon looks
If life pure feelings
nobody Andrea cope better than it would ...

If life only death and hatred,
Sebastian would be created for it!

/ me is emotional blockage .... Emtionales black hole, please tell me circumnavigated!

If life the playground
Tanja, would be the princess,
they always wanted to be!


I'm a [b] Masochist [/ b]

I always experienced the pain, the instinct, in the first relations ... Even in you ...

you trust me? Yes, I've probably worked out there ... I'm schiuld.

I questioned, I have doubts, I have counted 1 and 2 to 3 together .. there was no 2 therefrom ...

Am I incapable of relationship is only capable of local and temporary satisfaction ?....
to temporal pleasure?

I miss too much? Did I
to basic trust wneig Experience?
Am I just a little in the current flow in the lives of others? Never
solid mass, an integral part?

What have I done?
Was I too honest ... when I said I love you .....
As I said, please do not note
me when I said you're a forgotten
me when I said I was never the most important for you


Goodbye .... There is no
Loveland anymore ....

Goodybe