thoughts
emptiness ...
deep in IMMR the despair .. Blank in the head and yet full of ideas to a mill around not comprehend ...
emptiness ...
familiar, life-gray stupid outwardly friendly and happy, deep inner despair, depressed, and terribly drained from life ...
emptiness ....
meaning seeking, senselessness alive, so thinking it is all but meaningless, useless or senseless ..... sensuality miss ... seeking meaningful in life, emptiness findent ...
emptiness ...
up in the morning, empty, erlebnd the day, sometimes more or less uneventful and mostly sad .... know what's missing in life everyday ...
night go to bed lonely ...
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Tuesday, September 27, 2005
Welcome New Doctor Sample Letter
moon group @ 2005-09-27T20: 24:00
hmm Well you know .. often I sthee the window in the 7th Our floor Klnik shua out the window and jump in my thoughts jump, almost ... while all have to end, thinking that there are ways for it to end, it is indeed what I'm learning how it is best to quickly softest ......
and I'm standing there .. open the window ... suck the air deep into me and wants me once just once in my life, feel free .... only once complete master of my own to be .....
The desire is to jump more and more ...
then I think to people, people like you, to me it seems so unbelievable to me, something bedeutetn, which I hold to my way of feeling ... I like to be there may I help DEnter .... to me it means something but nciht cmih to 100% komtm ran mostly, but I feel somehow close dennoich ......
and I close the window again until the next time I come to this screen ....
and I know eventually I'm free, once free, and can fly ... and finally die
hmm Well you know .. often I sthee the window in the 7th Our floor Klnik shua out the window and jump in my thoughts jump, almost ... while all have to end, thinking that there are ways for it to end, it is indeed what I'm learning how it is best to quickly softest ......
and I'm standing there .. open the window ... suck the air deep into me and wants me once just once in my life, feel free .... only once complete master of my own to be .....
The desire is to jump more and more ...
then I think to people, people like you, to me it seems so unbelievable to me, something bedeutetn, which I hold to my way of feeling ... I like to be there may I help DEnter .... to me it means something but nciht cmih to 100% komtm ran mostly, but I feel somehow close dennoich ......
and I close the window again until the next time I come to this screen ....
and I know eventually I'm free, once free, and can fly ... and finally die
Monday, August 8, 2005
Best Spray Paint For Bikes
First on me07
Jahaaaaaaaaa, I had already mentioned: D
So today was the first day of Oncology at the station. A very interesting stop, but with much work and so! But yes
was again clear as soon as I come to a stop, someone has to leave Valhalla. There was already five days pre-final and died naturally on the day where I start, as he would have waited for me;) Today
first tried a lot of information to collect and to process and store in particular. Is not easy, but data is brought to major diseases, and they may work through them all!
In any event, the team seem to be very interesting, and above all very nice. With a student who does her exam soon, I am immediately understood. Well so far have been well received!
What struck me totally, is the difference between the clinics. The old building of the surgery with little comfort ..... outdated techniques or connections ... then orthopedics. set up from scratch and very well and then the inside ..... Modern but it lacks some things that are up to date ...
And you can see where to go to the donations!
It has a totally beautiful, wonderful view over Dusseldorf ... Direction Neuss (greetings to Daysleeper) and direction Dusseldorf center .... (Greetings to Campino) ...
7th Stock einfach geil .... (Hmm would be an almost sure Suicide: D. ..)
Hmm, I was really glad toal this morning not to go to school, but in the MNR, and then move, desinfizierne ... and high on the ward ...
that was such a wonderful feeling, patient contact ... Again useful work ...
Now it is a rather "heavy" station, because you very high mortality rate, but somehow I do not take the death really does not know whether I am particularly since, or something ... I have a different setting from the dead, not a grief or pain full, but redemptive death, and we must all .... Some sooner, some later. Surely it is for members schermzvoll I understand and can understand only ihc I stand there but somehow the other on the subject!
otherwise makes life progress as I am every day more ....
learn and experience every day somehow ....
Bin a few days ago relapsed with SIA, and must connect every day now on station because of our ORSA / MRSA cases or even the Isolitierten patients with weakened immune systems and so on!
Well just before their own protection and protection for others ...
Oh sigh .. I'm tired go to rest .. close my eyes to
Jahaaaaaaaaa, I had already mentioned: D
So today was the first day of Oncology at the station. A very interesting stop, but with much work and so! But yes
was again clear as soon as I come to a stop, someone has to leave Valhalla. There was already five days pre-final and died naturally on the day where I start, as he would have waited for me;) Today
first tried a lot of information to collect and to process and store in particular. Is not easy, but data is brought to major diseases, and they may work through them all!
In any event, the team seem to be very interesting, and above all very nice. With a student who does her exam soon, I am immediately understood. Well so far have been well received!
What struck me totally, is the difference between the clinics. The old building of the surgery with little comfort ..... outdated techniques or connections ... then orthopedics. set up from scratch and very well and then the inside ..... Modern but it lacks some things that are up to date ...
And you can see where to go to the donations!
It has a totally beautiful, wonderful view over Dusseldorf ... Direction Neuss (greetings to Daysleeper) and direction Dusseldorf center .... (Greetings to Campino) ...
7th Stock einfach geil .... (Hmm would be an almost sure Suicide: D. ..)
Hmm, I was really glad toal this morning not to go to school, but in the MNR, and then move, desinfizierne ... and high on the ward ...
that was such a wonderful feeling, patient contact ... Again useful work ...
Now it is a rather "heavy" station, because you very high mortality rate, but somehow I do not take the death really does not know whether I am particularly since, or something ... I have a different setting from the dead, not a grief or pain full, but redemptive death, and we must all .... Some sooner, some later. Surely it is for members schermzvoll I understand and can understand only ihc I stand there but somehow the other on the subject!
otherwise makes life progress as I am every day more ....
learn and experience every day somehow ....
Bin a few days ago relapsed with SIA, and must connect every day now on station because of our ORSA / MRSA cases or even the Isolitierten patients with weakened immune systems and so on!
Well just before their own protection and protection for others ...
Oh sigh .. I'm tired go to rest .. close my eyes to
Sunday, July 17, 2005
P90x Journal Template
Hmmm I do not think it with me is because I found "the" people still do not have or lost (look also diary) ..
no, I think it's just part of my life experience, but I will not say she was just schelcht, there are / were wonderful moments and I am grateful and have fond memories turn, or because, even if it sometimes still painful .
Well I'm always afraid to love People hurting, overwhelming them, daovn when I tell them how I feel, why it is so to me. I'm afraid, against which you are too good for me. I have not soweiso deserves.
I have learned not to react to positive emotional inspirations ... I'm in a learning phase, I learn a psotiven Ausschalg in my life to live, to experience ... to show it ... I have to learn a lot and most importantly, I share with emotionally, especially if it really captured me deeply emotional. I can say to a man who means nothing to me, what I think, both as a negative psotiv auhc, m but a man bdeuet me something that I like. That reminds me of the very difficult, even after years of acquaintance ... I prefer zzurück, I just do not want anyone bothering wiel so I done differently, think differently, and above all experience many different looks that way. me!
hmm just now not written by PM!
It makes you think ... Do not think the mistakes I make, I need to solcht not good conversation. No thoughtful, as I am what I am ....
Why am I so ...
The why is easier to explain. than why ...
I have studied many psyches .. learned much in this stuidert Themaktik ... just to know exactly why most people do exactly that and not just other things ... but with me this is in turn extremely difficult sometimes ...
good that I'm not gerworden Psychiarter .... I can explain
waru, I act, welceh reasons there are in addition ... DECLARE all with logic why. why and how ... not only with me also recognize the logic in my failed undas cih'm too emotional ... and yet my knowledge stops with me on ...
I know everything ... I only wieß not know why, and why can not stop iuch!
confidence in all just not in me ...
The world around me is not dark ... I just close my eyes and experience it so ....
hard around me people like me, so I find that the z say, and I close my eyes and tell me it can not be true ...
ic'm not used to that one likes me, they love me see more than once!
not think it is einfahc to write ....
Ivch you like, I do not see, I trust you, I do not show it, you
her away from me, uid, it is my fault, I do not wiel can show me what to euich lieght ....
I will not hurt, especially not you, not you daysleeper, not you coma, not you shelly, not the Tobi, you genius, you do not Vipers_Slave, not you, Luisa, not you .... Not all of you ...
I've hurt himself in order not to violate gauge to myself not to hurt ...
paradoxical as it seems ...
Forgive me my weakness, I allowed to verbalize ...
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Teething Cause Constipation
Sunday, 10/07 Monday, 07/18 Saturday, 09/07
hmm Have cleaned up my room today and I've found some pictures of her ....
of the most beautiful woman in the world to me ... After all
are separated almost 5 years, taken a few times by accident, she recently had a birthday ... Hmm
was almost always a schweerr days, this was actually 7.4 ...
I'm happy for her happy for a new year ...
Maybe I will this year's emahligen Meeting also see if I would go for the first time!
Hmm somehow makes thoughtful mihc the whole, it may look like
today, how is she, she has experienced so far good, if she now and again me thinks, so once a year?
Well it is Sunday night I was lying in bed: D can not sleep ...
Well custody gehtz so until a few physical ailments, knee problems and L2 to L5 but contain solutions gehtz me good ...
degree NEN review of low-Germany see ...
interesting, very interesting, but since ci identify people who have even less .... and I know of myself!
And notice how good I am, for the time and got training earn money ...
sigh
the social network ... many bitching about it while we still have one of the social networks Bestenm this world, but clearly still has a lot to be done for all the people who need help, but who want to do something!
parasite I do not like ...
morning school sigh ... Do not feel no plan or no plan einfahc if there not back out of boredom, what the teacher fails .. I work out on the ward or in private more than in the school, which is a pity ...
hzmm grad mal in 1817 characters: D
thoughtful I will ....
'm still alive .... Well anyway .... Bye
hmm Have cleaned up my room today and I've found some pictures of her ....
of the most beautiful woman in the world to me ... After all
are separated almost 5 years, taken a few times by accident, she recently had a birthday ... Hmm
was almost always a schweerr days, this was actually 7.4 ...
I'm happy for her happy for a new year ...
Maybe I will this year's emahligen Meeting also see if I would go for the first time!
Hmm somehow makes thoughtful mihc the whole, it may look like
today, how is she, she has experienced so far good, if she now and again me thinks, so once a year?
Well it is Sunday night I was lying in bed: D can not sleep ...
Well custody gehtz so until a few physical ailments, knee problems and L2 to L5 but contain solutions gehtz me good ...
degree NEN review of low-Germany see ...
interesting, very interesting, but since ci identify people who have even less .... and I know of myself!
And notice how good I am, for the time and got training earn money ...
sigh
the social network ... many bitching about it while we still have one of the social networks Bestenm this world, but clearly still has a lot to be done for all the people who need help, but who want to do something!
parasite I do not like ...
morning school sigh ... Do not feel no plan or no plan einfahc if there not back out of boredom, what the teacher fails .. I work out on the ward or in private more than in the school, which is a pity ...
hzmm grad mal in 1817 characters: D
thoughtful I will ....
'm still alive .... Well anyway .... Bye
Friday, July 8, 2005
Soling Sailboat For Sale
.2005
I've always [b] Masochist [/ b]
I think I had always liked it when you hurt me, that one hurts me ....
I unconsciously slip out to work?
Mach I durhc my behavior so much wrong, that there are people doing so painful? ...
I do it to simply laughed Irishman not to the boundaries, they do not mean to connect, I'm gefeid Wiess and it hurt me anyway, so I arm myself against it? ...
Am I Unable relationship ?....
Am I unable to truly love?
If life pure logic, no one would cope better than moon looks
If life pure feelings
nobody Andrea cope better than it would ...
If life only death and hatred,
Sebastian would be created for it!
/ me is emotional blockage .... Emtionales black hole, please tell me circumnavigated!
If life the playground
Tanja, would be the princess,
they always wanted to be!
I'm a [b] Masochist [/ b]
I always experienced the pain, the instinct, in the first relations ... Even in you ...
you trust me? Yes, I've probably worked out there ... I'm schiuld.
I questioned, I have doubts, I have counted 1 and 2 to 3 together .. there was no 2 therefrom ...
Am I incapable of relationship is only capable of local and temporary satisfaction ?....
to temporal pleasure?
I miss too much? Did I
to basic trust wneig Experience?
Am I just a little in the current flow in the lives of others? Never
solid mass, an integral part?
What have I done?
Was I too honest ... when I said I love you .....
As I said, please do not note
me when I said you're a forgotten
me when I said I was never the most important for you
Goodbye .... There is no
Loveland anymore ....
Goodybe
I've always [b] Masochist [/ b]
I think I had always liked it when you hurt me, that one hurts me ....
I unconsciously slip out to work?
Mach I durhc my behavior so much wrong, that there are people doing so painful? ...
I do it to simply laughed Irishman not to the boundaries, they do not mean to connect, I'm gefeid Wiess and it hurt me anyway, so I arm myself against it? ...
Am I Unable relationship ?....
Am I unable to truly love?
If life pure logic, no one would cope better than moon looks
If life pure feelings
nobody Andrea cope better than it would ...
If life only death and hatred,
Sebastian would be created for it!
/ me is emotional blockage .... Emtionales black hole, please tell me circumnavigated!
If life the playground
Tanja, would be the princess,
they always wanted to be!
I'm a [b] Masochist [/ b]
I always experienced the pain, the instinct, in the first relations ... Even in you ...
you trust me? Yes, I've probably worked out there ... I'm schiuld.
I questioned, I have doubts, I have counted 1 and 2 to 3 together .. there was no 2 therefrom ...
Am I incapable of relationship is only capable of local and temporary satisfaction ?....
to temporal pleasure?
I miss too much? Did I
to basic trust wneig Experience?
Am I just a little in the current flow in the lives of others? Never
solid mass, an integral part?
What have I done?
Was I too honest ... when I said I love you .....
As I said, please do not note
me when I said you're a forgotten
me when I said I was never the most important for you
Goodbye .... There is no
Loveland anymore ....
Goodybe
Thursday, June 30, 2005
What Funny Things I Can Write About Myself?
Friday
with the gun in the face ...
as you choose?
the neurotic .....
the depressed: endlöich shooting, will always fail
the hysterical: I'm always shooting to the jittery
Schizoid: you want me So do not take excessive
the obsessional neurotic: though it be true, so by shooting ncht .. ..
does what the psychotic ... ?
forgets the ball ... do you fear for the man who shoots at you ....
Is man wirklcih present, the shooting at me?
I am immortal, no matter how real the ball ....
And the BPD jumps back and forth because ... may determine not !
Well what I am, what are you? ..
onboard speaker? ligend would be so close, but rather psychotic ....
for anxiety (neurotic) cover me, but the wishes of the end ...
what is with you, with you ?..... SO
with the gun in the face ...
as you choose?
the neurotic .....
the depressed: endlöich shooting, will always fail
the hysterical: I'm always shooting to the jittery
Schizoid: you want me So do not take excessive
the obsessional neurotic: though it be true, so by shooting ncht .. ..
does what the psychotic ... ?
forgets the ball ... do you fear for the man who shoots at you ....
Is man wirklcih present, the shooting at me?
I am immortal, no matter how real the ball ....
And the BPD jumps back and forth because ... may determine not !
Well what I am, what are you? ..
onboard speaker? ligend would be so close, but rather psychotic ....
for anxiety (neurotic) cover me, but the wishes of the end ...
what is with you, with you ?..... SO
Monday, June 27, 2005
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school has started again ...
nice themes, urination, defecation: D, catheter place to place Soni Deren and stomach tubes: D
the practical daily help of puppets, even more interesting;)
But now, yes I am totally frh which the holiday is over, you has to do what wiueder, one is required
The heat is me ... neither in school nor at home I can Kruze Things have ... in school simply not clear, because something is bad for reviews, see if it scars etc ..
at home, I do not do this favor for my parents ...
It makes the thought, I'm worn, the family can carry me, would not deny or better ... The thoughts that I've noticed, there are actually related to anything I know and wording of my "mother", "Is better this way" ...
It ignores me .... Parasite was a clear word ....
I do not take part in family life, family life, which I think to myself then ....
Sure, I'll sit down with them nciht, not really talking with them, except phrases, who would always do. I hate to have contact under pressure, I need my freedom, I must not be forced, otherwise I withdraw even more.
I need now and my loneliness, my retreat versthen, but they are not doing it.
My life is not interesting, it's not exciting, not as exciting as it is something new every day ...
morning school, thank God ....
... thoughts on the night ?.....
darkness are protective, while deep fears that are aroused ...
...-= good night =-...
school has started again ...
nice themes, urination, defecation: D, catheter place to place Soni Deren and stomach tubes: D
the practical daily help of puppets, even more interesting;)
But now, yes I am totally frh which the holiday is over, you has to do what wiueder, one is required
The heat is me ... neither in school nor at home I can Kruze Things have ... in school simply not clear, because something is bad for reviews, see if it scars etc ..
at home, I do not do this favor for my parents ...
It makes the thought, I'm worn, the family can carry me, would not deny or better ... The thoughts that I've noticed, there are actually related to anything I know and wording of my "mother", "Is better this way" ...
It ignores me .... Parasite was a clear word ....
I do not take part in family life, family life, which I think to myself then ....
Sure, I'll sit down with them nciht, not really talking with them, except phrases, who would always do. I hate to have contact under pressure, I need my freedom, I must not be forced, otherwise I withdraw even more.
I need now and my loneliness, my retreat versthen, but they are not doing it.
My life is not interesting, it's not exciting, not as exciting as it is something new every day ...
morning school, thank God ....
... thoughts on the night ?.....
darkness are protective, while deep fears that are aroused ...
...-= good night =-...
Friday, June 10, 2005
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[b] [COLOR = red ]***** trigger *****[/ COLOR] [/ b]
intoxicating,
you look at me, I'll try
is to get up again, but
your power too great.
I know
you only want one thing,
redemption of feelings of pressure is in me.
That makes me bleed.
sehst Challenging you before me,
I look at you,
it is necessary to
we do the same?
Release me from the pain I think
I wish
can you give me that,
you understand my pain?
You make me bleed.
Can you comfort me?
include me in your arms?
The pain?
promise thou to me?
sells pain pain
sensual, emotional,
than that out there,
all just an illusion That makes me bleed
.
You are a different world,
you understand me,
me endure,
catch me with your claws.
Oh knife,
what a friend I found in you?
You destroy me
and save me from this world at the same time.
[b] [COLOR = red ]***** trigger *****[/ COLOR] [/ b]
intoxicating,
you look at me, I'll try
is to get up again, but
your power too great.
I know
you only want one thing,
redemption of feelings of pressure is in me.
That makes me bleed.
sehst Challenging you before me,
I look at you,
it is necessary to
we do the same?
Release me from the pain I think
I wish
can you give me that,
you understand my pain?
You make me bleed.
Can you comfort me?
include me in your arms?
The pain?
promise thou to me?
sells pain pain
sensual, emotional,
than that out there,
all just an illusion That makes me bleed
.
You are a different world,
you understand me,
me endure,
catch me with your claws.
Oh knife,
what a friend I found in you?
You destroy me
and save me from this world at the same time.
Saturday, June 4, 2005
Herpes On Face And Mouth
Saturday, 04/06/2005
Now it no matter how you call it, it's just thinking, foremen on.
The problem is that I at least here where I live for grad time, again and again and always get more the crisis ...
The depression are there for the night will always and always strärker, the desire to go always present, but never as strong as at night .....
I try to fight it, because I see just fine too, as can druaßen in the world that I hardly understand, which runs past me, without me have some.
But this struggle, this is mostly played inside costs as much power, and I do not know, honestly do not know how long it has for so little effort ....
I mean, when I'm at work when I'm not here, not in this house, not in this room, not in the area have these people, it is often very good to me. I love my job. There I am relaxed, there I am glad there ihc am indeed a little bit happy, but just the thought of driving home having to be home, let me fall again totally deep ... and fall ....
I am relaxed when I'm at work when I work, and I feel as clearly better than at home ...
But long story short .... sometimes yes sometimes I really want to live forever, and I SGAE repeatedly trying, piece by piece, day by day ... no matter how hard it is ......
* sigh * Hardly
Now it no matter how you call it, it's just thinking, foremen on.
The problem is that I at least here where I live for grad time, again and again and always get more the crisis ...
The depression are there for the night will always and always strärker, the desire to go always present, but never as strong as at night .....
I try to fight it, because I see just fine too, as can druaßen in the world that I hardly understand, which runs past me, without me have some.
But this struggle, this is mostly played inside costs as much power, and I do not know, honestly do not know how long it has for so little effort ....
I mean, when I'm at work when I'm not here, not in this house, not in this room, not in the area have these people, it is often very good to me. I love my job. There I am relaxed, there I am glad there ihc am indeed a little bit happy, but just the thought of driving home having to be home, let me fall again totally deep ... and fall ....
I am relaxed when I'm at work when I work, and I feel as clearly better than at home ...
But long story short .... sometimes yes sometimes I really want to live forever, and I SGAE repeatedly trying, piece by piece, day by day ... no matter how hard it is ......
* sigh * Hardly
Friday, June 3, 2005
How To Contact Jardine Enterprise About Dresser
moon group @ 2005-06-04T04: 02:00
holiday downhill already gehtz .... Deep down ... constantly at home ... only Sletnes away .... I remember this life on the head ....
... I want to get off ....
Evaluates please my behavior, as Able Hung your company, that company, of your life ...
holiday can be so beautiful ... eifnahc can Chalfen ... ausschalfen .. without SVV without this life, it would certainly be relaxing ....
you fuck ... Fuck you fucking life ... I do not want you living ertragn not ... do not understand ...
no matter how much logic you also bring, I do not want you not, this life ....
Do you know how it is, just have to ... Kopfschmzeren, constantly under stress .... Always trust the fear in the neck ...., difficult to .... The pain in the body, mind ... in us ....
nciht I want, fuck you, fucking life ... destroy you, but please do not continue to me .... I can do quite well themselves ...
What do what you want from me? ... I will cope, its alright, deceive, what is going on in me? ... asking you ?.....
and what if I just do not have the strength to do?
Fuck you ....
I can not and will not .....
The desire for death, save the ...
I release myself from the world, I
deliver the world from me ... I
redeeming all of you from me ....
it is more and more ....
holiday downhill already gehtz .... Deep down ... constantly at home ... only Sletnes away .... I remember this life on the head ....
... I want to get off ....
Evaluates please my behavior, as Able Hung your company, that company, of your life ...
holiday can be so beautiful ... eifnahc can Chalfen ... ausschalfen .. without SVV without this life, it would certainly be relaxing ....
you fuck ... Fuck you fucking life ... I do not want you living ertragn not ... do not understand ...
no matter how much logic you also bring, I do not want you not, this life ....
Do you know how it is, just have to ... Kopfschmzeren, constantly under stress .... Always trust the fear in the neck ...., difficult to .... The pain in the body, mind ... in us ....
nciht I want, fuck you, fucking life ... destroy you, but please do not continue to me .... I can do quite well themselves ...
What do what you want from me? ... I will cope, its alright, deceive, what is going on in me? ... asking you ?.....
and what if I just do not have the strength to do?
Fuck you ....
I can not and will not .....
The desire for death, save the ...
I release myself from the world, I
deliver the world from me ... I
redeeming all of you from me ....
it is more and more ....
Monday, May 9, 2005
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moon group @ 2005-05-09T23: 21:00
Actually ...
I really should
frueen .. on the work you accept me, I was much more respectful than bin cih inthe training, you dare me to task. may make the eigenlich nr E or F course students .. You can work me alone, shows the miners I'm good ...
It shows confidence, and Rrepsket ..
But ...
so bad I can handle it .. It is totally the one I ungwohnt rtraut that you anvertraurt me something that you say good work dsa cih ... It is so terrible ... hc fue me while I ioch fear because cih cniht know how to handle it / must ...
I had huet again monitoring / evaluation ... glaufen sher is good ... and but I understand cih cnihtm weiß0 cniht as I can handle it / should / must ...
shit day was Mother's Day .. I thought mine feelings udn (see lyrics) written down, and then pretend and pretend as if everything is ok ... cih because I know would say Diew Warhheit .. I would soon find out otherwise, he might say amen when I .. So pretend again ... love SiBN conform to the stereotype ...
* puke *
Actually ...
I really should
frueen .. on the work you accept me, I was much more respectful than bin cih inthe training, you dare me to task. may make the eigenlich nr E or F course students .. You can work me alone, shows the miners I'm good ...
It shows confidence, and Rrepsket ..
But ...
so bad I can handle it .. It is totally the one I ungwohnt rtraut that you anvertraurt me something that you say good work dsa cih ... It is so terrible ... hc fue me while I ioch fear because cih cniht know how to handle it / must ...
I had huet again monitoring / evaluation ... glaufen sher is good ... and but I understand cih cnihtm weiß0 cniht as I can handle it / should / must ...
shit day was Mother's Day .. I thought mine feelings udn (see lyrics) written down, and then pretend and pretend as if everything is ok ... cih because I know would say Diew Warhheit .. I would soon find out otherwise, he might say amen when I .. So pretend again ... love SiBN conform to the stereotype ...
* puke *
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
How Do You Know If You Have Ball Cancer
moon group @ 2005-04-27T00: 34 : 00
Sometimes everything goes further in Wonderland, where everything good from
EGHT ...
in mind storm .... experiencing stories, or just a Traumm .... Was it love, what is reality, what is just wish and what you give back to me? ... What
wirklcih do you want me to know? Want wirklcih deep into my soul, recognize faces what abysses this man? .. Do you want to do that to you wirklcih, this horror, get in personae ... Want to know the pain you corners, the corners of Leidesn, the people with fear, with hatred, with doubt, with desires, with deep cuts in soul and body?
Want to know the people behind the facade lenern? The people with the facets, with the fear .... how to make the ien little boy's eyes when ihc see nothing, it is not there? With a man who does not know where he wants, but knows he can not stay here iwll ?......
Want it all Know, will you accompany it? Think about it .... you maturely you can still get away .... can not you just say no ...
I would do it
die I'm not afraid of
as long as you are with me ....
desires .... To end, u erlecihtern your torment to myself .. Destroying the Wual in me diee image, for these memories, de genes that are in me, the jenr "producer" vrmachte me .... to destroy any of this family ...
find peace ...
But I'm not alone, because you're there .... any words ... friendly, loving, m so unexpected and not really vestädnlich .. you bring me yet .....,... they lead to life ...
pssssssssss * * it does not say more .... thanks ....
everything will go over now.
fürndie Nothing is forever, everything wiurd pass and I will have the luck to pass ...
Sometimes everything goes further in Wonderland, where everything good from
EGHT ...
in mind storm .... experiencing stories, or just a Traumm .... Was it love, what is reality, what is just wish and what you give back to me? ... What
wirklcih do you want me to know? Want wirklcih deep into my soul, recognize faces what abysses this man? .. Do you want to do that to you wirklcih, this horror, get in personae ... Want to know the pain you corners, the corners of Leidesn, the people with fear, with hatred, with doubt, with desires, with deep cuts in soul and body?
Want to know the people behind the facade lenern? The people with the facets, with the fear .... how to make the ien little boy's eyes when ihc see nothing, it is not there? With a man who does not know where he wants, but knows he can not stay here iwll ?......
Want it all Know, will you accompany it? Think about it .... you maturely you can still get away .... can not you just say no ...
I would do it
die I'm not afraid of
as long as you are with me ....
desires .... To end, u erlecihtern your torment to myself .. Destroying the Wual in me diee image, for these memories, de genes that are in me, the jenr "producer" vrmachte me .... to destroy any of this family ...
find peace ...
But I'm not alone, because you're there .... any words ... friendly, loving, m so unexpected and not really vestädnlich .. you bring me yet .....,... they lead to life ...
pssssssssss * * it does not say more .... thanks ....
everything will go over now.
fürndie Nothing is forever, everything wiurd pass and I will have the luck to pass ...
Satin Covered Buttons
moon group @ 2005-04-26T11: 08:00
....
Swiss generated words apply, often sickle-rich deeper than 100 words, 100 sets all around, more than 10 .... hotkey press!
I'm confused, I'm funny on it, somehow,
And then you have to run and work the same ... cih
I can not wait, if I can work in the psychiatric ... ih believe that then keep me right there: D * g * naja right to go there quite well ...
naja was the night as far as I GLAB quite OK, except for the post up there * think * anyway ... oh well who cares .... It was like
....
Swiss generated words apply, often sickle-rich deeper than 100 words, 100 sets all around, more than 10 .... hotkey press!
I'm confused, I'm funny on it, somehow,
And then you have to run and work the same ... cih
I can not wait, if I can work in the psychiatric ... ih believe that then keep me right there: D * g * naja right to go there quite well ...
naja was the night as far as I GLAB quite OK, except for the post up there * think * anyway ... oh well who cares .... It was like
Monday, April 25, 2005
What Is Mihoreal Name
moon group @ 2005-04-26T01: 18:00
disabi salvation ...
I have as long as it gesxchafft not make ...
wars again today so far, and feel
cih me scheklcht in Gegnteil, I feel a little better facilitates ...
The cuts are deep RALS thought but they were liberating ... I hope to be able to delay the cuts eifnach ever hinasuzu ...
The day was exhausting .. somehow lonely, have actually worked nu alein without guidance on what eiegntlich not perfume ...
.. really but somehow they always work alone lassn me: \\ ...
This world is sick ...
no ...
not this world
We tef people are sick, sick ... and destroy us in our own Arrogfanz for health .... Tues
disabi salvation ...
I have as long as it gesxchafft not make ...
wars again today so far, and feel
cih me scheklcht in Gegnteil, I feel a little better facilitates ...
The cuts are deep RALS thought but they were liberating ... I hope to be able to delay the cuts eifnach ever hinasuzu ...
The day was exhausting .. somehow lonely, have actually worked nu alein without guidance on what eiegntlich not perfume ...
.. really but somehow they always work alone lassn me: \\ ...
This world is sick ...
no ...
not this world
We tef people are sick, sick ... and destroy us in our own Arrogfanz for health .... Tues
Saturday, April 23, 2005
All I Want For Christmas Is You Kates Playground
moon group @ 2005-04-23T14: 30:00
stupid stupid, it's the weekend I had so much to do, can rouse me but nothing to buy, would have, would have to wash, cook would make would have to clean ...
alone lacks the verve.
degree in old things, revel in ancient music, thought I'd get out the old CD's and Bravo Hits dug out my folder: D It's almost embarrassing what we heard earlier as good or even found good: D
Ace of Base - The Sign
Fanta 4-4 win
jaja because it is melancholy. I realize now how old I am but, those songs do not already know many, they are either too young or just what they missed. I need to find that I strongly discourage going to the 30, and I inwardly amnchmla still like a child feel more like a child, a teenager but not like an adult should make the already slow time planning for his future, should also think about family and stuff ...
Sigh ...
You grow old ... 10 years ago the world looked rosy udn lay at our feet and now we have our vegetables can steal the world, from the dinky little young to consist only of face pimples : D
Real McCoy - threw said automaticloveletter
exaggerate 10 years ago we were out of the disco because we were too young and now you ask us to pick which child we really want.
Somehow the world has changed and I feel I am still where I was 10 years ago ... Where I think I was always .... Have I developed or was eifnach just too slow for this world.
No matter how the world turns, it seems to me, I just do not get behind. Yesterday, in step with everything, and today I have the feeling miles away world, and each step seems to be a step that is useless ... Or have
I changed so that the world no longer fits me? I thought of my in Menen experiences, my feelings are no longer fit in here?
I wanted but will never be older than 18 years, I have to shrink to find that I have not achieved that goal, and today zwangig with center manhcmla me more than ever wish that it would be sooner a point where the I leave this world, and I hope no one is crying for me. A depressive
something melancholy and uncertain sitting here ... With self-doubt and questions, which no one can bentworten ... cih not even myself for myself ....
.... Keep the
World, I want to get off .....
....
the rest is silence
stupid stupid, it's the weekend I had so much to do, can rouse me but nothing to buy, would have, would have to wash, cook would make would have to clean ...
alone lacks the verve.
degree in old things, revel in ancient music, thought I'd get out the old CD's and Bravo Hits dug out my folder: D It's almost embarrassing what we heard earlier as good or even found good: D
Ace of Base - The Sign
Fanta 4-4 win
jaja because it is melancholy. I realize now how old I am but, those songs do not already know many, they are either too young or just what they missed. I need to find that I strongly discourage going to the 30, and I inwardly amnchmla still like a child feel more like a child, a teenager but not like an adult should make the already slow time planning for his future, should also think about family and stuff ...
Sigh ...
You grow old ... 10 years ago the world looked rosy udn lay at our feet and now we have our vegetables can steal the world, from the dinky little young to consist only of face pimples : D
Real McCoy - threw said automaticloveletter
exaggerate 10 years ago we were out of the disco because we were too young and now you ask us to pick which child we really want.
Somehow the world has changed and I feel I am still where I was 10 years ago ... Where I think I was always .... Have I developed or was eifnach just too slow for this world.
No matter how the world turns, it seems to me, I just do not get behind. Yesterday, in step with everything, and today I have the feeling miles away world, and each step seems to be a step that is useless ... Or have
I changed so that the world no longer fits me? I thought of my in Menen experiences, my feelings are no longer fit in here?
I wanted but will never be older than 18 years, I have to shrink to find that I have not achieved that goal, and today zwangig with center manhcmla me more than ever wish that it would be sooner a point where the I leave this world, and I hope no one is crying for me. A depressive
something melancholy and uncertain sitting here ... With self-doubt and questions, which no one can bentworten ... cih not even myself for myself ....
.... Keep the
World, I want to get off .....
....
the rest is silence
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
How To Introduce Myself To A Prospective Employer
moon group @ 2005-04-19T15: 12:00
Would not life,
would be the existence or less tolerable.
/ me would be glad if taketh him something to say and yet longs sihc answer anch ... : \\
If my life does not, it would
you better go
/ me would be grateful for every moment of silence in his body ... and yet I long for conversations and information
Would not the memories, dreams
would be nice ....
/ me tries to ignoreiren the world
while he would just be ignored
Would not the emotional pain, sore
would even be tolerable.
/ me still lives and future life
and loses himself in sihc
Would not life,
would be the existence or less tolerable.
/ me would be glad if taketh him something to say and yet longs sihc answer anch ... : \\
If my life does not, it would
you better go
/ me would be grateful for every moment of silence in his body ... and yet I long for conversations and information
Would not the memories, dreams
would be nice ....
/ me tries to ignoreiren the world
while he would just be ignored
Would not the emotional pain, sore
would even be tolerable.
/ me still lives and future life
and loses himself in sihc
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Can You Put Alcohol In Your Camelbak
moon group @ 2005-04-10T22: 52:00
sosoooooooooooo
now I have the trial period (almost) survived:) exams on Friday survived quite well, but three did not make it.
Now I have another 7 weeks of practice on the ward, and has to get up tomorrow at 4 clock and sigh that's too early too early ... sigh
Otherwise tjha white net .. life around it there are hardly any ..... but am happy to be here:) Well
sosoooooooooooo
now I have the trial period (almost) survived:) exams on Friday survived quite well, but three did not make it.
Now I have another 7 weeks of practice on the ward, and has to get up tomorrow at 4 clock and sigh that's too early too early ... sigh
Otherwise tjha white net .. life around it there are hardly any ..... but am happy to be here:) Well
Wednesday, April 6, 2005
Safe Homemade Rolling Paper
moon group @ 2005-04-06T23: 23:00
gehtz how? If you like
dsa know?, You think he? They? , All of you?
What will know her?
would destroy miir I prefer something else .. wants to run away, I .. I fear for the moment before now have ?,.....
Want to know, I do not think ds tomorrow to experience, but just sometimes think to survive now?
Will you really know
the fear in me, deep in me the fear of life ... before the soul, before live ....
ye wiyssen it?
You see, of course not ....
so I feel good ...
gehtz how? If you like
dsa know?, You think he? They? , All of you?
What will know her?
would destroy miir I prefer something else .. wants to run away, I .. I fear for the moment before now have ?,.....
Want to know, I do not think ds tomorrow to experience, but just sometimes think to survive now?
Will you really know
the fear in me, deep in me the fear of life ... before the soul, before live ....
ye wiyssen it?
You see, of course not ....
so I feel good ...
Sunday, March 13, 2005
Do You Get Headaches From Lh Surge
Sun 13-04.2005
hmm Well the weekend is over survived irgendiwe,
erinnerungne hmm actually kaumwelceh or not ....
only gruaer SGAT mNebel dermir wsa done but that's what that does not know cih ...
ch not want to know ...
but wirmiene weredn suffering around me tell soon enough what happened ...
pondering .....
schalf schalfen einfahc for einschalfen always ....
longing
hmm Well the weekend is over survived irgendiwe,
erinnerungne hmm actually kaumwelceh or not ....
only gruaer SGAT mNebel dermir wsa done but that's what that does not know cih ...
ch not want to know ...
but wirmiene weredn suffering around me tell soon enough what happened ...
pondering .....
schalf schalfen einfahc for einschalfen always ....
longing
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